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Though Hajime Hinata has yet to remember his reason for getting into Hope’s Peak Academy, if he had to hazard a guess, he’d say his “talent” is probably his innate ability to sense when there’s something wrong with Komaeda. No matter how far from the white haired teen he wanders, he knows almost instinctively if there’s something wrong. It’s like telekinesis.
And hey, it’s Komaeda. There’s usually something wrong. Which is exactly why Hinata excused himself from dinner early to check up on the boy.
The scene inside the aforementioned boy’s cottage is, unfortunately, one that our Hinata has grown used to in these past few months. As soon as he opens the door he’s met by a stench of stale alcohol and cigarette smoke. The room is like a war zone; it’s obvious that it hasn’t been tidied in days, maybe even weeks.
That’s what despair does to a person.
Komaeda is sitting the same way he usually sits when there’s something wrong; knees pulled to his chest, head buried in his arms. He tries to make himself as small as physically possible, as if doing so for long enough will just make him vanish into thin air. He’s whispering softly to himself, though only fragments of sentences catch Hinata’s ears. “...I keep doing the same thing...I thought it was alright...why does this keep happening to me?”
“Komaeda?” Hinata’s harsh voice sounds awkwardly loud. “What are you doing?”
The white haired boy glances up with swollen, pink eyes. They’re framed with bags that are far too black and bitter for his babyish face. He opens his mouth to speak, but nothing comes out. There’s just this awful, awful silence that seems to hurt more than any words ever could.
Hinata steps carefully over the things on the floor and sits himself across from Komaeda, making a small space amidst the rubble. “You can’t go on like this, you know.”
It has been exactly one week since the first Class Trial, and though everyone is still visibly disconcerted, Komaeda doesn’t seem to be coping at all. With the absence of both Byakuya’s leadership and Teruteru’s jokes, the group feels like it’s missing something vital. Although Hinata has got to admit, though the entire scene shook him something awful, it’s the boy sitting cross legged in front of him that he has the real issue with.
Komaeda’s dull eyes meet his. They remind the brown haired boys of water on glass; though the colour is so muted and numbed, everything behind those eyes is so terribly distorted. A small laugh spills from the teen’s lips. “Of course I can.”
They sit together in a mutual silence for a while. No matter how much he tries, Hinata can’t find a way to get used to this smell of alcohol and cigarettes. “This room smells terrible.”
Komaeda’s head is once again buries in his hands. “I know.”
“Aren’t you going to clean it?”
“No.”
Suddenly, Hinata feels this burning anger rising in his stomach. It feels like someone’s replaced the blood in his veins with fire. “Will you just spit it out? Why aren’t you speaking? What is it this time?”
Komaeda raises his head finally, his tired eyes taking on a slightly more surprised look. “I don’t—”
“—I’m not leaving this room until you say something.”
“You all hate me anyway, right? I’m much better off just staying in here away from everyone.” Hinata’s eyes widen, but the anger doesn’t subside. “Stop looking at me like that, would you? It’s not like it isn’t apparent by now. I’m no better than some sort of fictional monster, Hinata. I know you think so too.”
For the first time since he met the grey eyed boy, Hinata has been rendered completely speechless. His already exhausted mind just isn’t functioning properly — how is he supposed to reply? He opens his mouth to speak, but he can barely hear himself. “Why are you saying this?”
“Because it’s true, isn’t it? Had it not been for Byakuya’s night goggles, I would’ve killed him ruthlessly. I’m a talentless, useless, good for nothing waste of space.” Komaeda’s laugh is hollow. “Not to mention, I’m an absolute eyesore. You hate me.”
Hinata’s words return to him. “Don’t you dare give me that. Do you honestly think I’d be here if that’s how I felt?”
“I don’t think the same way as you do. Probably.”
“I wouldn’t spend time with you if I didn’t like you, Komaeda.” Hinata stands now, and Komaeda’s grey eyes are fixated on him. “Isn’t that a basic human action? You do the things you enjoy doing, right? Spending all day in this cottage, drinking and smoking all alone, is it making you happy? Is it?”
“Just stop—”
“—Why? So you can give me yet another list of all the things you hate about yourself? See, that’s the thing about self hatred; it’s yourself who feels that way. Not every single living human on earth. Why is that so hard to understand?”
“Because I know that it’s not just me who feels this way. I know that I deserve all of it, because I’m just an incompetent—”
“—Your mind is working against you. Do you understand that? You’re working against yourself.” Hinata takes a deep breath in and tries to compose himself. “C’mon, you need to go to bed. You’re half drunk.”
Komaeda poses no objection, of course. Instead he sits on the floor, tears still slipping from his eyes like children on snow, and allows Hinata to grab him under his arms and lift his fragile frame into a standing position. The white haired teen leans his full weight onto Hinata, not even bothering to contain his crying anymore.
“It’s too much, Hinata.” He says between sniffles. “I can’t.”
“What’s too much?”
“Everything.”
Hinata helps Komaeda to his bed at the other end of the room. Honestly, it’s the least he can do. Though it’s late and Hinata’s as physically exhausted as he is mentally, he notices how the grey eyed boy’s cold hand clings onto his for just a tad longer than necessary.
The anger from earlier has just disappeared completely. As it is, Komaeda’s head lays rested on the brown haired boy’s lap and his hands stay loosely in his. Neither of them say a word, but Hinata knows that the boy on his lap won’t sleep unless he stays. Judging by the tiredness in his eyes, it’s only a small sacrifice to make.
“You can go, Hinata.”
“It’s okay. You need the sleep.”
“I’m just a waste of oxygen, aren’t I?” Komaeda’s voice is quiet and his cold hands are latching onto Hinata’s with such desparity that it frightens him. “And you’re hope.”
Before Hinata can reply, Komaeda’s asleep. Despite all the terrible thoughts that frequent his mind during the day, he looks so peaceful at rest.
Honestly, if it’s for someone like the boy on his lap, Hinata thinks he could handle the responsibility of being hope. Hope is necessary for people to continue living. And only when faced with a sense of great, spiralling despair can we find hope.
Most people would think that hope and despair are a terrible match, but this scene proves otherwise. The brown eyed hope and the grey eyed despair; they fit.
And hey, it’s Komaeda. There’s usually something wrong. Which is exactly why Hinata excused himself from dinner early to check up on the boy.
The scene inside the aforementioned boy’s cottage is, unfortunately, one that our Hinata has grown used to in these past few months. As soon as he opens the door he’s met by a stench of stale alcohol and cigarette smoke. The room is like a war zone; it’s obvious that it hasn’t been tidied in days, maybe even weeks.
That’s what despair does to a person.
Komaeda is sitting the same way he usually sits when there’s something wrong; knees pulled to his chest, head buried in his arms. He tries to make himself as small as physically possible, as if doing so for long enough will just make him vanish into thin air. He’s whispering softly to himself, though only fragments of sentences catch Hinata’s ears. “...I keep doing the same thing...I thought it was alright...why does this keep happening to me?”
“Komaeda?” Hinata’s harsh voice sounds awkwardly loud. “What are you doing?”
The white haired boy glances up with swollen, pink eyes. They’re framed with bags that are far too black and bitter for his babyish face. He opens his mouth to speak, but nothing comes out. There’s just this awful, awful silence that seems to hurt more than any words ever could.
Hinata steps carefully over the things on the floor and sits himself across from Komaeda, making a small space amidst the rubble. “You can’t go on like this, you know.”
It has been exactly one week since the first Class Trial, and though everyone is still visibly disconcerted, Komaeda doesn’t seem to be coping at all. With the absence of both Byakuya’s leadership and Teruteru’s jokes, the group feels like it’s missing something vital. Although Hinata has got to admit, though the entire scene shook him something awful, it’s the boy sitting cross legged in front of him that he has the real issue with.
Komaeda’s dull eyes meet his. They remind the brown haired boys of water on glass; though the colour is so muted and numbed, everything behind those eyes is so terribly distorted. A small laugh spills from the teen’s lips. “Of course I can.”
They sit together in a mutual silence for a while. No matter how much he tries, Hinata can’t find a way to get used to this smell of alcohol and cigarettes. “This room smells terrible.”
Komaeda’s head is once again buries in his hands. “I know.”
“Aren’t you going to clean it?”
“No.”
Suddenly, Hinata feels this burning anger rising in his stomach. It feels like someone’s replaced the blood in his veins with fire. “Will you just spit it out? Why aren’t you speaking? What is it this time?”
Komaeda raises his head finally, his tired eyes taking on a slightly more surprised look. “I don’t—”
“—I’m not leaving this room until you say something.”
“You all hate me anyway, right? I’m much better off just staying in here away from everyone.” Hinata’s eyes widen, but the anger doesn’t subside. “Stop looking at me like that, would you? It’s not like it isn’t apparent by now. I’m no better than some sort of fictional monster, Hinata. I know you think so too.”
For the first time since he met the grey eyed boy, Hinata has been rendered completely speechless. His already exhausted mind just isn’t functioning properly — how is he supposed to reply? He opens his mouth to speak, but he can barely hear himself. “Why are you saying this?”
“Because it’s true, isn’t it? Had it not been for Byakuya’s night goggles, I would’ve killed him ruthlessly. I’m a talentless, useless, good for nothing waste of space.” Komaeda’s laugh is hollow. “Not to mention, I’m an absolute eyesore. You hate me.”
Hinata’s words return to him. “Don’t you dare give me that. Do you honestly think I’d be here if that’s how I felt?”
“I don’t think the same way as you do. Probably.”
“I wouldn’t spend time with you if I didn’t like you, Komaeda.” Hinata stands now, and Komaeda’s grey eyes are fixated on him. “Isn’t that a basic human action? You do the things you enjoy doing, right? Spending all day in this cottage, drinking and smoking all alone, is it making you happy? Is it?”
“Just stop—”
“—Why? So you can give me yet another list of all the things you hate about yourself? See, that’s the thing about self hatred; it’s yourself who feels that way. Not every single living human on earth. Why is that so hard to understand?”
“Because I know that it’s not just me who feels this way. I know that I deserve all of it, because I’m just an incompetent—”
“—Your mind is working against you. Do you understand that? You’re working against yourself.” Hinata takes a deep breath in and tries to compose himself. “C’mon, you need to go to bed. You’re half drunk.”
Komaeda poses no objection, of course. Instead he sits on the floor, tears still slipping from his eyes like children on snow, and allows Hinata to grab him under his arms and lift his fragile frame into a standing position. The white haired teen leans his full weight onto Hinata, not even bothering to contain his crying anymore.
“It’s too much, Hinata.” He says between sniffles. “I can’t.”
“What’s too much?”
“Everything.”
Hinata helps Komaeda to his bed at the other end of the room. Honestly, it’s the least he can do. Though it’s late and Hinata’s as physically exhausted as he is mentally, he notices how the grey eyed boy’s cold hand clings onto his for just a tad longer than necessary.
The anger from earlier has just disappeared completely. As it is, Komaeda’s head lays rested on the brown haired boy’s lap and his hands stay loosely in his. Neither of them say a word, but Hinata knows that the boy on his lap won’t sleep unless he stays. Judging by the tiredness in his eyes, it’s only a small sacrifice to make.
“You can go, Hinata.”
“It’s okay. You need the sleep.”
“I’m just a waste of oxygen, aren’t I?” Komaeda’s voice is quiet and his cold hands are latching onto Hinata’s with such desparity that it frightens him. “And you’re hope.”
Before Hinata can reply, Komaeda’s asleep. Despite all the terrible thoughts that frequent his mind during the day, he looks so peaceful at rest.
Honestly, if it’s for someone like the boy on his lap, Hinata thinks he could handle the responsibility of being hope. Hope is necessary for people to continue living. And only when faced with a sense of great, spiralling despair can we find hope.
Most people would think that hope and despair are a terrible match, but this scene proves otherwise. The brown eyed hope and the grey eyed despair; they fit.
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“I’m just a waste of oxygen, aren’t I?” Komaeda’s voice is quiet and his cold hands are latching onto Hinata’s with such desparity that it frightens him. “And you’re hope.”
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so soph may have shamelessly become obsessed with danganronpa 2 over the weekend. she also may have become obsessed with that wreck we've all come to know and love as komaeda. it's been a long week, and i'm unwinding by writing some good old komahina. nothing better, right?
smoking/drinking is ooc but it felt right haha
komaeda nagito / hinata hajime / any other mentioned characters and danganronpa itself belongs to spike chunsoft
this thing belongs to yours truly
WORD COUNT: 1,463.
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so soph may have shamelessly become obsessed with danganronpa 2 over the weekend. she also may have become obsessed with that wreck we've all come to know and love as komaeda. it's been a long week, and i'm unwinding by writing some good old komahina. nothing better, right?
smoking/drinking is ooc but it felt right haha
komaeda nagito / hinata hajime / any other mentioned characters and danganronpa itself belongs to spike chunsoft
this thing belongs to yours truly
WORD COUNT: 1,463.
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